AUGUST 13, 2006
"REVELATIONS" DIRECTOR BLOG, PART I
Hello, I'm John Adams and I directed "Revelations."
As far as acting in it as well, I thought it was going to be really easy. I remember having a conversation with Alexandra LaRoche, our script supervisor, before we got started. She goes, "I can't believe you're working as much in this episode as you are." (Literally, in the eight-day shoot, I worked the first six or seven days acting in almost every scene while directing at the same time.) But I was like: "Ah, it should be easy. It'll be easy."
But by, I think, the second day, I was like: "This is the hardest thing I have ever done."
It wasn't so much the fact of the acting, it was definitely from the directing perspective, not being able to have the ability to always sit behind the monitor. The thing that was the most liberating was the crew, the producers, the camera operators, the DP -- everybody was so good at their jobs. Just knowing that I had a very resourceful and competent crew behind me, made it a lot easier to do.
But, even in that, there were certain things when I watch the episode, I look at and go, "Ah, that's almost what I wanted." Where, if I had been behind the camera, sitting in front of the monitor, I could've said: "No no no. Start that pan a little later" or "Don't rack focus yet" or "Rack focus now!" But all in all, I was really happy with the final product. Really happy.
I learned a couple of really valuable lessons through the entirety of the arc of learning to direct.
Originally, I was like, "Well, you know what? Acting is my passion. Acting is what I want to do. At some point, I'd like to direct." It was serious, but in hindsight it was a bit cavalier, my attitude toward directing. I was like: "Sure, sure, I'll say 'action' and 'cut' and 'where's my quiche?' It's not a problem."
My approach to directing, I thought, was going to be to facilitate my acting ability. I thought that, if I directed, it would give me a different perspective on how to approach the acting process. It would have to make me be more attentive to the different components of completing a story and it would make me a better actor.
Well, what I quickly realized is that you might as well be a director to learn to be a better catering or craft services person, or you might as well go to school to become a tailor if you want to learn how to become a better actor. They serve the same purpose. What I mean by that is, if you want to direct, you have to be completely focused on directing and want to direct for the purpose of directing.