AUGUST 13, 2006
JORDAN WILL NEVER BE AS POWERFUL AS ME
Now I have no doubts about what I was put on this earth to do.
It's ironic that Jordan Collier was the one person who helped clarify this for me. He actually helped me to do something I should have done long ago: leave the Center once and for all.
Truth be told it has felt like a prison lately.
Despite Shawn's assertions, I think from infancy I always knew that Collier and I would never be on the same side. Maybe that's why I let him go through with the party the day he was shot. Maybe I thought we'd all be better off without him.
How could I know that he would come back, not only stronger, but armed with information about the future and an agenda? I don't know where he went, who he was with or what happened to him while he was gone but one thing is for sure: Jordan Collier has become more dangerous than ever.
But he'll never be more powerful than I am. That I know for sure.
Everything that's happened over the last few days has made me realize that what I've been doing with HaspelCorp has been the right thing all along. Maybe I was just holding on to what was familiar -- the Center, my Dad, Shawn -- and living in a bit of a dream world, thinking that I could marry Shawn and have a normal life.
Now I'm certain that I was putting my energies in the wrong place and letting myself be held back by emotions that have no place in my life.
I know exactly where I'm going and what I'm going to do.
And more importantly, I know just the person to help me do it.
Past Entries from Isabelle:
- (8/6) What Is Going On!!
- (7/30) I Have My Mother's Blessing
- (7/23) Here Comes the Bride
- (7/16) Shawn and I Have More Important Matters
- (7/9) Matthew Didn't Get It. Will My Father?
- (7/2) Only I Know What's Best For Me
- (6/25) I Will Not Let Matthew Manipulate Me
- (6/18) Shawn Will Be My First
- (6/11) I Have a Purpose